Just Breathe

I am completely disappointed in myself today, and I'm having a hard time moving on.  Once again, a few kids dictated the mood of chorus - even after I told them that they could drop chorus.  They were still absolutely miserable.  One of the girls ran out of the room and when she got back, I told her to sit at a desk instead of with the rest of the kids.  As she sat, I leaned over the desk so that I didn't have to yell and no one else would hear.  Honestly, I was trying to do the right thing and not embarrass her.  Only she didn't see it that way.  She was upset because I was "in her face".  And while my intent was not to intimidate or humiliate, I'm afraid that's exactly what I did.  What should I have done?? I have 63 other 6th graders in the class - it's not like I can walk her down to the office...or even out to the hall, and leave the others alone.  It had to be addressed - she ran out of the room, talked back to me, and refused to do as I asked.  In retrospect, I know I should've just had her sit there during the class and let us both cool down and then addressed it after class.  But I was so frustrated that I didn't take a few seconds to step back, take a deep breath and evaluate.  I reacted too quickly.  For whatever reason, this girl gets that response from me.  And now I beat myself up for it.  Seriously - we're all flawed, right?  Why can't I let it go...live and learn...right?  Ugh.  
So anyway, after talking to their guidance teacher, we gave kids one more day to quit chorus - I thought about 7 or 10 kids were going to quit.  Ummm....try 20.  Most of them just need a study hall and I feel badly for them.  But that's the schedule.  I know throughout the year I'll get about 10 or so more to join.  So while I'm bummed out about that many dropping, I know it'll work out.  AND - chorus will be much more enjoyable for me and the rest of the group.  So I'm actually looking forward to chorus tomorrow.  I'm excited for everyone who stayed...they'll actually get to sing.  Yay for singing!
So not a Top 10 kind of day...we'll file this under "MESS" and hope for "BEAUTIFUL" tomorrow.