Welcome

A beautiful mess.  Why would I name my blog that?  Well...I have a beautiful life.  I'm incredibly blessed with an amazing family and friends who support anything and everything I do.  Move to Boston without a job?  Sure...why not?  Move to Maine and teach for the first time after being out of college for 10 years?  Sure...why not?  Guest conduct a district honors festival after only 2 years of teaching?  Sure...why not?  I feel like I can do anything because of my support system.  That's the beautiful part.  The mess part?  Well...I'm pretty much a trial and error type of person.  I don't give a lot of thought to much of what I do...I kind of just jump in because it sounds fun...or challenging.  This type of attitude is pretty humorous and many times it's a mess. Fortunately, there have been no major catastrophe's...just lots of humorous stories and many humbling moments.
It has recently occurred to me that I'm entering a new phase in life.  And it seems to be an interesting one.  I seem to have a very strong desire to be more "natural"...yoga...acupuncture...alternative treatments...more organic foods.  I'm not sure where this comes from, but I like it.  It makes me feel relaxed and confident.  It makes me feel strong and focused.  I feel like for the longest time (all my life) I've tried to figure out who I am...and I guess I'm finally finding it.  (cripes, took me long enough!)  I'm figuring out what I like not only about me, but for me. I WANT to take care of myself so that I can be a better person...not because I want to look better, or feel healthier. Those are just added bonuses.  I feel like I'm a better person living a more natural life (not sure what else to call it...organic?)  I've noticed  my attitude has begun to change...I'm much  more patient, and I choose how to react to things.  Instead of instantly being irritated or angry, I'm more able to step back and figure out if it's really worth that negativism.  Usually it's not.  School has been a struggle the last 2 years - lots of going head to head with the other teachers.  And this year, I'm just going to work with them.  Already I'm seeing results, and they are more willing to work with me as well.  It sounds so simple.  So why does it take 35 years to figure out???   Who care...I can't worry about that.  The point is I'm getting there.
So anyway, I thought it would be good to blog this instead of boring everyone with my theories.  My Lord, I have a lot of theories...about everything!! Migraines...teaching....family...cripes, I even have a gazillion theories on why I'm still single (I blame the upstanding men in my family - they set the standard too high!!).  I've never been one to write in diaries so who knows how this will work out.  But I thought it would at least be good to go  back and read as I journey through this next phase.  I'm optimistic and excited. 


So...let it be known that in the last week I have gone to yoga twice, gone to a Jason Mraz concert with my BFF, and gone 4 days without a migraine.  Things are looking good!!