Decisions, decisions...

I'm not sure what is going on with me, but it seems I'm making major life decisions left and right.  To buy a house or not buy a house? When to move out into my own apt (April 1st, as I've decided the least I can do for my parents is stay through the winter to help shovel since mom cannot, and they've been so good to me)? Should I go to Grad School or not?  And if so, should I hold off and take some refresher courses first?  Well....I am currently pulling everything together to apply for fall classes.  No refresher classes.  Just diving in.  I've written the required essay on professional goals, and have requested the three letters of recommendations - one is already completed.  Now I just have to video myself teaching and add that to some video of me conducting in a concert and throw it in the mail.  EEKS!  Why did I decide to not take the refresher courses?  Well...because I'm a moron.  No...I jest.  I guess I just figure I can continue to delay this and doubt myself, or I can dive in and see what happens.  The worse thing that can happen is that I take a step back if I find it's too hard, right? So honestly, I'll probably just take one class next fall.  This is going to be a very long process...years.  YEARS!  Oye.  Eeks!  Cripes. I have heart palpitations and I haven't even been accepted yet. Can I just be done with big decisions for a while, please?  I don't like them!!  I'm not good at them...