Dope Brain

It's come back...the drug brain.  When I can't complete a thought, never mind a sentence.  I am driving right past streets I know I should be turning onto....and to make it worse, I realize I'm doing this as I drive through the red light.  Like, SERIOUSLY, a red light.  Not a yellow light turning red.  A legit red light in a major intersection on Forest Ave.  And do you know what my thought was?  Not, "Phew - thank God for watching over me and everyone else, and me not causing an accident".  Nope - it was, "is there a cop around?  If I get pulled over, my car isn't inspected".  I was looking for my classroom keys when I was leaving today, to make sure I wasn't locking them in my room.  My co-worker was telling me she could lock my door for me, and my response was, "well, I just need to make sure I have them for yesterday".  Whaaaaa??   Again, with my co-worker, we've just gone over a few things I needed in my classroom and we were walking down the hall.  I stopped and had to ask what we were doing.  I honest to God had no freaking idea.  None.

I don't understand.  I remember when I first when on the Topomax this was a side effect.  But it seems like it wore off.  I mean, I know I loose my train of thought a bit more, but I'm not stupid like I am now.  The only thing I can think of is that with getting ready for school and all, I've having to think not only more and concentrate more, but I have to think on my toes a lot more.  And there is so much going on in my mind right now, that maybe I just have  hard time keeping it straight. 

I don't know....but I think I'm going to call my neurologist and see if I can decrease the topomax from 100 mg to 75mg.  I was going to start weening myself off it off the holidays anyway, but maybe I'll start sooner.  My migraines are doing pretty well right now, so we'll see what happens...